I am your ride or die. I will do anything for you. I will go wherever you invite me. I want you to know I will show up. I will be there. I will support you. But there are so many times I don’t get that in return.

You know those feelings when you try to get your children, family, or friends to go places you enjoy. “Hey I will pay if you would just go with us.”. But they never want to go. So instead you cancel your plans or never make the plans. You feel guilty for leaving your loved ones behind. What if they need me while I’m away. I have felt these feelings far too many times.

I feel each one of these to my core. I enjoy going on adventures and making memories. I have always felt adventures and memories were more valuable than any worldly possessions. But if I leave the ones I love behind it leaves an empty space in my heart. I never get to truly enjoy the adventure that awaits. I always find myself saying “I wish she or he would have come”, “I know she or he would have loved this”, “Am I being selfish for not staying home” or “Why do you think he or she would not enjoy this”.

When is it my turn? There will come a day when adventures will be no more.When that days comes I will say “It is my turn Lord”!Take me on the best adventure!

Man ol man how many times have you heard the statement “It goes by fast”, “Enjoy the time you have” and “they are only yours for 18 years”.

As my children grew up, many family members, friends, and people I didn’t even know, would say these quotes to me. I would always shake my head and say “yeah”. While thinking I’m tired, they’re tired. I’m overthinking, they’re not thinking. They’re my best friend and they have their own friends. Me and my husband were doing the best we knew how to.

We raised our kids in a loving home. And no matter what we provided for their needs, maybe not all their wants. But every need was met. We made sure each year we took a family vacation. I always felt adventures would be sketched in their memory. And I always wanted them to remember that no matter what mama and daddy took the time to love on them.

I guess all those quotes during their childhood was to prepare me for the teenage years. The young adult years. The time they don’t need me. The moments you miss with their friends. Their own adventures. The quietness. The cleanness. The stillness. The question, what are we going to do today? My heart was not ready. My mind was not ready.

I made my children my world. Now, I have to learn how to live in a world where they learn about life experiences. I remind them daily I am a phone call away. I will gladly was your clothes, scrub your ball pants, be by your side while you are sick, and hug you tight when the world is overwhelming.

When you hear these quotes from family, friends, or even strangers, take them in. Enjoy each moment. Life goes by so fast. And one day you have to release your world into the world. You got this mama! You got this dad! We prepared them for this release!

I have been asked several times. Why do you want to blog? What is blogging?

Why do I want to blog? That’s a good question. As I have become older I truly enjoy reading. I enjoy the simpler things in life. Like sitting at home on a Saturday with no plans. But I also find myself reflecting on past experiences. And as I reflect, I think to myself what if someone else is going through what I myself have been through or if someone is experiencing the same thing as me presently. That is my purpose in blogging.

What is Blogging? Blogging to me is like an online diary. One that you can come to daily and type out your thoughts, feelings, and experiences. It’s and outlet where others can hear your voice without hearing your voice. Where you can be free to say what you would like to say. Without hesitation or judgment.

With those questions behind us. Let’s get to blogging.

Thank you for taking the time to read my blog.